I have been thinking about my blog lately. Thinking about how I just abandoned it, this with another writing project I have worked on for some time. Someone approached me the other day, and told me she read my blog. That got me thinking again, that maybe it is time to write again. I can’t believe my last entry was in May 2010! Where does the time go? Life is a journey, a journey that takes us all to the other side. We are all on the path to death, a concept I really have pondered for the past two years. Maybe this is why I have not blogged… I have been way to busy living my journey, experiencing life at it’s fullest.
This blog began as just a way to keep everyone updated on my cancer story. Well this May it has been three years. Now I am not sure the angle I will take on my blog. Maybe an angle of a mom, or a business women or a girl on a never ending spiritual journey. The beauty of life, and writing is that it takes many twists and turns and you never know what your gonna get.
I think it will be way to hard to catch everyone up, I say everyone like anyone reads this. I think I will just start to blog again even if it is just for me. Sometimes I just need to let my fingers type freely. Anyways, there I go getting side tracked. I think catching up on two years may be tricky. But let me see if I can do a quick run down.
As a mom I am watching my kids get more and more independent and am loving it. Long gone are the sleepless nights and the early weekend mornings, well almost on that one. Usually Saturday mornings are filled with soccer or baseball games. But as a mom you will find me in my chair cheering on my kids.
As a business women a lot has happened. May of 2010 is where we left off. Well in August of that year we opened up our new schoolhouse building that took two years to build. It was very exciting and it continues to thrive with the thanks of my very amazing staff. In 2010 I opened up two centers and really began the road to learn how to be a CEO of a company.
2011, was sort of an odd year for me. I think 2011 was the year my cancer caught up with me. You see I like to stay busy, maybe it is because it is easier to ignore the fear that dwells in the back of your mind after you have heard the words you have cancer. Being busy can help take your mind off the constant nagging that cancer is not done with you. 2011 was the year I slowed down a bit, the schools were doing amazing, and I was juggling being a mom and CEO which gave me time to think about what had happened and what may happen again. The past two years I have had scans, scans and more scans. There was a brain cancer scare and this past August there is a MRI showing a couple of questionable things.
At this point it is just a watch and see kind of thing… which to me really sucks. If there is something I want to know, I don’t like the wait and see attitude.
In late 2011 I dedicated my time to really working on my novel and I came a long way. It is close to being done, then I stopped completely. I began to get busy again working on a new project. In the beginning of this year I signed a lease… a big lease on a big building to open a third location. So to say the least I am now swamped and busy launching my new school.
Overall life has been good, I have my days where I believe whole heartedly that I am dying of cancer. That it is in my body somewhere and they just can’t find it yet. I have my days that I just ignore it all and live it up and party like a rock star. But mostly what I have learned most these past two years is that death will find each of us, it is the one thing that we can’t control. So mostly I don’t fear death anymore. Some people may thing I am odd, because I talk like death is just a normal event. Yes it is sad, but in reality maybe we should be talking about it more. Once you free yourself from the fear of death I think you can live a much better risk taking life.
Well this shall be fun… let’s see where my fingers take us in this blog.