What Do You Do When You Know You Were Wrongly Diagnosed?

What Do You Do When You Know You Were Wrongly Diagnosed?

What Do You Do When You Know You Were Wrongly Diagnosed?

Since my oncology appointment last Wednesday as much as I tried to avoid cancer life again, I have been sucked back in. I guess only the past two days has my mind been focused on the mistakes Kaiser made in 2009. The mistakes the pathologist made could have huge repercussions. That is what I keep going back to. I should have had chemo and Herceptin. Having Her+++ IDC means a more aggressive form of cancer. I go back to the fact that I had nothing. No chemo, no Herceptin, no radiation and no Tamoxifen for the past four years. That is my hang up.
I have tried to let it all go and hope that I get a pass, that for some reason all of that won’t matter and I will live to be an old woman.  For the most part over the past six months I have tried to let all of this go and just enjoy my life. It is only when I am forced back in by doctors that I get reminded that I should have done more to keep myself away from cancer for a long time.
But in the end I guess I just have to let it go right? Or can I? I am not sure I will ever let it go, now with the knowledge I have. I have made the decision to just live it up and do all the things I want to do now, while I am healthy. So hopefully after the results of this scan come in, after I see yet another cardiologist for my heart issues I will have six months off again, then I can live in bliss again. But for today, I wait and ponder what more should have been done in 2009.

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