I can’t believe it has been so long since I was last on here. The kids went back to school today and I did the happy dance. Summer was fantastic don’t get me wrong. We enjoyed our summer with boating trips, camping and friends. I am thankful for my family and for all of our friends.
What a difference a month makes or I guess a little over a month makes. I am feeling like a whole new women. Selling my other business and now only having one has been the best thing for me and my family. I haven’t even looked back, no regrets that is for sure. I didn’t realize how many directions I was going and how not good I had become at many things in my life. So my CEO hat is hung up and in retirement. Now, we never know the future so I don’t promise anything but for now I am done with that part of my life.
Today I feel as though I am on a new path, a new beginning. I am feeling great, working out M-F, working out without pain in fact. I am hoping to run my first 5k in October. I feel content, as though I am on the path I am supposed to be on. This summer I also wrote the ending of my book, the book I have been working on and off for over six years.
This is why I feel as though I am on a new journey. I finally finished and as I step back I am amazed where my characters took me. That may sound weird and I get it, but this story the past six years has truly been a reflection of my own life, my own journey. I had no idea when I started I could really do it, write a novel, get from point a-z. Maybe this is why I also feel so content, I have accomplished a goal I set out for myself.
Last spring I felt my entire life be put on pause. I had no idea whether I would be bald soon, whether or not I would be alive in six months. I promised myself as I finished my book I would not put my life on pause again. No matter what. The outcome of all my testing has resulted in myself being shocked that no cancer is being seen anywhere. So with that outcome I feel as though I am running to accomplish things I want to accomplish. Doing everything I want to do and being who I want to be. I am alive, I am feeling good and with that I can and will do more in my life.
We all really have no idea when our life will stop, so why be who we really want to be. Why not accomplish the dreams we have. Facing my own death has really given me the freedom to live.
I am so excited to see what happens with my book. Honestly when I started I had no hopes of really publishing. I just wanted to prove to myself I could do it. I also had no idea that the book I started would actually have a book two and three. When I finished my ending a few weeks ago it came to me, book two and three. So now I will be starting the next two books and in the end it will be a series.
I have no idea what is going to happen when I do finally publish. I thought I would market myself to agents and publishing houses. But in realty I think I am going to be an indie author. I have learned so much managing my business, marketing and growing it. I want this challenge to promote my book, to tell my story the way I see it. So I am getting ready to see what is going to happen.
Who knows it could be a huge flop… but in realty to me it was a dream I had and I needed to accomplish before I left this world. The fear of my cancer possibly returning this past spring made me realize again that the only time to finish what we have set out to do is the present.
So begins my new journey of becoming a published author. I am researching, interviewing and working behind the scenes to get ready to go public with my story. I stopped writing for a long time because I was nervous with what people would think of me.
How they would perceive me. I also stopped writing for awhile because my story was scarring the shit out of me. Facing and acknowledging our own demise is never easy, it is an emotional roller coster at times and I went through the emotions of my characters.
But today I am ready, I am ready for what is to come. I can’t wait to see my cover design and to see how this is all going to fall into place. A lot of hard work is coming and I am ready and focused to become a published author. Even my kids are cheering me on, they are my inspiration as well as my husband.
So cheers to new beginnings.