Leaving Cancer Behind
Since my road trip I have really been walking away from cancer. I have the luxury right now too walk away from cancer, and I know that I am very fortunate. I have not visited my cancer board too often and I have not been to the doctor for two weeks. So I guess I am feeling almost normal, until it comes up in conversation. I am very open with my story because I want others to realize this can happen to them and we all need to be our own advocate. But honestly I am pissed off about everything I had to go through, and how my body feels every day. I see my scarred up chest and it is a constant reminder. But in dealing with this annoyed feeling of having cancer I am moving forward with my life and thinking less of cancer each day. I am beginning to think ahead, dream and work towards new goals. As each day passes, so does the thoughts of cancer coming back. Maybe because my four kids keep me so busy that I don’t have time to think!!!
I am back in school again so I have homework, we are building and expanding my preschool so that is taking up much of my time. I am swamped really, cancer sure has not slowed me down at all. So I guess as much as I feel annoyed with cancer, my happiness is greater than cancer. I am so grateful to be alive each day, to have another day of thinking I am cancer free. I see plans of mine that have been in the works for a couple of years coming to life and it reminds me that I am alive! This is going to be a good year, or a better rest of the year. I am sick of bad luck, and I am reclaiming my life….. I am claiming a secret and mindful mentality once again…..
Cheers to better days and leaving cancer fears behind….